Surprise surprise

Well im back in utah... good old snowy cold dry utah. did i say good? because i shouldnt have! I miss hawaii!! I miss the greenery with all the tropical flowers and plants and the sun constantly shining and the rainbows that appear all the time and the ocean and the sound of the waves and so much more. The truth is that i fell more in love with hawaii this time. For some reason i found it to be much more beautiful. It really is a spectacular place. It is the coolest thing to be driving on the highway and have the ocean right next you the whole way. It is so pretty. Also the way the mountains are and the different flowers and textures of plants. I noticed things so much more. It really would be fun to live there for a couple of years, especially because all the people are really like they are in the movies... everyone is so laid back. It is so relaxing compared to say, new york where everyone is in a rush and tense. Hawaii everyone lets everyone go in front of them and will open doors and everyone talks to each other like they are best friends. And the style, there is no rich snobby style. everyone is usually dressed down and just like whatever. So i like that about it a lot too especially since i get stressed easily. It calms me down.

Anyways.... your probably wondering what the title is referring to and that is that me and jimmy decided not to get engaged this Christmas. A couple of weeks ago i started praying about marriage because jimmy and i have gotten to a very serious point, well i immediately felt so happy after even the first day and had such a warm and happy spirit. I began to think that maybe this was my answer but i personally wanted a little stronger confirmation. .. so i still waited and prayed more...hoping to get a better confirmation. well around the same time that i started praying about marriage, i was driving home from work one night when i felt such a strong prompting that i needed to go to Hawaii. Now me and jimmy had this idea in mind but it was no where near definite and we were actually leaning more towards not having me go because i was going to see him soon for christmas and it was a lot of money. But i felt then so strongly that i needed to go so i called jimmy as i was driving home and told him that i needed to go and actually started crying. I had no idea why i was being such a "girl" about it when usually im fine and it really wouldnt be a big deal to wait until December. Anyways being the guy that jimmy is he said he would think about it but not to worry. The next day we decided that i was going.

This week showed why i had to go. It truly was God's way of giving us our answer and i am sad but grateful for this opportunity. After just Monday i felt and saw that jimmy just wasnt "ready" to be engaged not because of anything else other than the fact that he wasnt where i would want my fiance to be with the gospel. He is getting there and even close in many ways but hes not there and he felt this too. So on Tuesday afternoon we had a long talk with many tears but peaceful hearts that now wasnt the time to get engaged which was heartbreaking because i was looking forward to this for a while. I planned on getting engaged for christmas and having this romantic experience blah blah blah. But the Lord has surprised me yet again dealing with marriage. I mean 10 years ago i thought that i was going to go to UCLA, meet some hott rich surfer guy and get married and live in cali. And about 3 years ago i thought i was going to marry the infamous boomer. However, i think this time im more correct in my predictions because i was so happy praying about jimmy to be my husband and felt the spirit so strong... i just think or basically know that this was the Lord's way of telling us... you two can very well get married... its just not the right time. And i know that even though its hard because me and jimmy have to slow down a little that everything is going to be okay.

After that talk me and jimmy had the most romantic week that i have ever had EVER! we danced on the beach at night and played tag, we went horseback riding in the mountains and by the beach coast, we made smores on the beach, we drank hot chocolate on the roof of his car by the beach, we took walks, we went snorkeling, we went kayaking, and we just played and had so much fun. There are things about jimmy that are so unique and special and i just loved and love being around him! He is so stress free and just makes everything fun. Like when we went kayaking he would sing silly songs and try to tip the boat or when we would go out to dinner he would order me a surprise fun drink. I just LOVE him! And he is still coming for christmas so dont worry you'll still get to meet him (for those who havent). =)

Well to sum up I love hawaii and i do think i want to be married there. The way im thinking now is that next fall i will go to BYU hawaii and then maybe who knows, next fall we'll get engaged and maybe around christmas time we'll be married in hawaii. So just keep that in the back of your heads. Until then ill be stuck here in the cold with lots of homework to do... lol JK it will be fun and i look forward to the next year! i still am SO happy and am ready for whats to come!